20 December 2009

Currently

It has been so many months now since you left this country, I couldn't remember how many times I've talked about how much I missed you in front of people since then. Then again I realized something; that all these while, while you're out, I have participated into so many episodes of drama I do not even know how to begin with.

Truth is, I am just another typical gay that seeks comfort in others wherever he can. That, quite explained so many of these short-lived romance and that, I hated myself. I know I couldn't keep me for the one that matters though I know my circumstances, given how you view this relationship.

I want to do better for you... But I find distance is quite well, a distance. It is an obvious barrier and it takes courage and faith to see it through.


Through out what has happened in the last semester, I find myself awaken in a way, to appreciate and understand who's the one I have been really looking for. And there are so many trivial things you did that really send tinges of hope for me although it all only happened in cyberspace. I can only pray that those are not just another form of mirage.


For whatever it is, my heart and arms are remain wide open. Waiting for you.

Recently, you're back for the holidays. As much as I wanted to see you again, I was occupied with AIESEC's conference. If only I need not to attend that.


I guess Alexis was right. She thinks you possess some sort of devil charm. For me at least.. I find that undoubtedly true.


Till we meet again in the Chinese New Year's break. My friend.

04 November 2009

For you

This song has been introduced to me by my dad when I was much younger. Personally, there is no song influenced me as much as this one because when I hear this - You came into my mind.

It's interesting when you post this up on your Axcest profile. I don't know the reason why did you did so but I know, if there's a chance, I'll want to dedicate this music to you.



Tina Turner - Simply The Best


I call you when I need you, my heart's on fire
You come to me, come to me wild and wired
Mmm, you come to me
Give me everything I need
Give me a lifetime of promises and a world of dreams
Speak a language of love like you know what it means
Mmm, it can't be wrong
Take my heart and make it strong, baby

You're simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I've ever met
I'm stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say
Tear us apart no, no, baby, I would rather be dead

In your heart I see the star of every night and every day
In your eyes I get lost, I get washed away
Just as long as I'm here in your arms
I could be in no better place

You're simply the best, better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I've ever met
I'm stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say
Tear us apart no, no, baby, I would rather be dead

Each time you leave me I start losing control
You're walking away with my heart and my soul
I can feel you even when I'm alone
Oh baby, don't let go

Ooh you're the best (woo)
Better than all the rest
Better than anyone, anyone I've ever met
Ooh, I'm stuck on your heart, I hang on every word you say
Don't tear us apart no, no, no,
Baby, I would rather be dead
Oooh, you're the best!



p/s: I'm still waiting for you.

01 November 2009

New Beginning

This new layout - the change of colours and fonts marks the start of a "new" blog. It is christened "Chapel of Solace" for a reason.

Firstly, this blog is not connected to my other blogs because I want to keep it to myself. A place I can call sanctuary to publish my thoughts without alarming my readers of the second and third blog.



This is due to a few reasons.

Mainly it's because this blog will soon contain many snippets about my relationships. Much of the information are not intended for those who will be mentioned in the following posts, though I'll try to reduce the mentions of names.

Sometimes this blog will also contain posts that either condemn or state prejudice towards someone that deserves it. May it be harsh, but I'll never want the person to find out. I am a pacifist.



Let there be light, and mercy for me and those who I might mention.

02 February 2009